Leadership during crisis is not something that they prepare you for in school. There’s no set of questions on the comprehensive or certification exams. There’s no manual. You just have to do it. My struggle right now is leading and being my usual transparent self. I’m tired. I’m frustrated. And in my opinion, I’m the last person anyone should be looking to for advice on how to deal with this new reality.

But maybe that’s exactly why I’m qualified to lead. Maybe my refusal to pretend that the sky is not falling in is exactly what draws people to me. Maybe my acknowledgement of the fact that I am barely hanging on by a thread is the honesty that people need to validate their own feelings about the situation. Maybe, just maybe, me feeling like a hot mess gives others the permission to also feel like a hot mess.

I know this one thing: together we can survive anything. The key word in that sentence is together. It will take all of us, acknowledging the truth of the moment and working to change this situation for the better. It will take all of us admitting that everything is not roses and sunshine. Only then, when we admit that our current systems may not be working, can we work together to find a better solution. Only then can move forward and try something new. If we can admit it’s not working, maybe we can have the courage to try something different without fear of failure. For we will all believe & know that we can continue to adjust as we move forward, together.

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Life has been hectic. I’m sure that is an understatement for a lot of people. And it’s true. Life is hectic, until it isn’t. I’ve been thinking about that a lot more then usual lately, which by my standards really means I am thinking about it all of the time. Life is hectic, until it isn’t.

As a society, we stop frantically running around like chickens with our heads cut off for two primary reasons: (1) we choose to, or (2) we are forced to. In the last 4-5 months, most of us have been forced to stay indoors. For some, that has meant slowing down. For others, that has meant moving at break-neck speed from home instead of the office. For me, that has meant some hodge podge mixture of both. I’m usually always pretty good at boundaries sometimes. (please tell me you laughed at my poorly timed joke, lol). This time of quarantine has afforded me the opportunity to see how that affects my health and my family. There’s something about honest reflection that usually sparks some kind of change in people, or at least in me.

My biggest take-aways from this time are listed below, in the quickest way possible, as I have a family to get back to.

  1. Nothing is more important than family. No meeting, email, idea, brainstorming session, etc. When my kids asks me to read a book with them or play a game of Candy Land, I stop and play Candy Land. When my hubby asks if I want to watch a movie of one of our recorded shows, I stop at watch the show. Spend time with the people you love while we have this amazing opportunity to do so.
  2. If you’re not in good health, you can’t enjoy your family or anything else. I’ve always taken decent care of myself, but this time has allowed me to laser focus on making choices that allow me to make my physical AND mental health a priority. I’ve lost 15 pounds since my district closed it’s doors in early March, and I’ve gained a clarity that I haven’t had in a while. It’s quite amazing what fresh air, walks, runs, journaling, & unplugging can do for a person. Therapy doesn’t hurt either.
  3. Life is too short to remain in boxes that other people have created for you. Boxes are traps. I’m reminded of when my boys were little. Like all toddlers, they loved boxes. They would sometimes climb in to play, and then cry when they couldn’t get out. I never helped them. Many people, especially my mother, thought that it was a cruel response. But I always sat near them, talking to them to keep them calm. I wanted them to learn problem solving. You got yourself into the box; you can get yourself out of the box. And that is exactly what I intend to do!
  4. Hair is overrated. So are manicures. I mean, I already knew that, but boy is it apparent now. No one can even see me on most days of the week. It’s absolutely marvelous to know that getting off of the crazy train that focuses so heavily on appearances was the right decision.
  5. Most people only care about your opinion if it is aligned with theirs. Don’t believe me? Just check your social media timeline. Don’t waste your time or energy trying to change the opinions of others who just want to (1) argue and/or (2) be right. Another free gem – Don’t waste your time or energy arguing with people who are committed to misunderstanding you.
  6. Black women are not magical. I know, that’s probably controversial. I hate to be the one to say it. I am not magical. I am just incredibly tired, but I somehow find the strength to conquer the myriad of things that have tried to overwhelm me while doing so with grace & style.
  7. It’s okay not to be okay. That was my favorite line in a Jessie J song years ago, and my 8th graders made fun of me for it. It’s true now more than ever. We are living in polarizing and sometimes scary times. It’s okay to need a break. It’s okay to unplug. It’s okay to get off the ride for a while. That is NOT quitting, and it is NOT failure.
  8. Leadership is messy. There is no one perfect way to lead. There are many roads and paths to take. There are hard decisions that have to be made. In my humble opinion, the core of good leadership is a servant’s heart. As long as you are leading from a place of service to your community, it will all work out in the end.
  9. Everything is political. There is literally nothing that happens in this country that isn’t political. Stop pretending that your silence is you “not wanting to be political” and admit that it is really you not wanting to be uncomfortable. It doesn’t make you a horrible person. It makes you human.
  10. Love is an action, not a feeling. This is true in every area of life. This is true for every type of relationship in our lives. We should all aim to love well, to love often, and to love unconditionally.

Stay safe & be encouraged. We’re in this for the long haul.

~Until next time


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A small, five letter word that carries more weight than almost anything else in our lives. A huge component of good leadership is building trust. Most of the time, the focus of the conversation is about building trust within a team, with colleagues, etc. Rarely, does that conversation shift to the other side of the coin.

*Enter Ashley, stage right*

Today, I would like to focus on that often forgotten side – deciding who and what you should trust. How do you decide where to place your trust? No, it’s not a rhetorical question. I want you to honestly answer. What are the qualities that you look for in a person that you consider trustworthy? How do you decide if a program or practice is worthy of your time & effort? Who do you listen to as a respected authority? The list you develop is undoubtedly related to the sum total of your experiences as a person, including your morals, values, and experiences. That means that everyone’s answer will be unique to them. Some people will base things on competence. You’re looking for accomplishments, accolades, degrees, etc. Others will focus on relationships. They’re looking for past experiences, relatability, and even trusting their gut feelings about a person. Still others will mention some combination of both. There is no right or wrong answer. The point of this post is not to steer you down any single path; it’s to get you to reflect about how you make decisions, specifically as they relate to trust.

I, for one, fall into the category of people that first look for competency-based trust. How do I know that you are qualified in this area? Why should I listen to you? Do I trust this person, software, etc. to do its job? What do the data, reviews, etc. say? I could continue, but the list would be longer than this post. My gut feeling is great, but if it’s not backed up by facts I don’t completely trust it. That often leads me down the same path when it’s time to make decisions. As a leader that can be helpful, but it can also be a hinderance to decision-making. Additionally, it makes me considerably less likely to take uncalculated risks. It’s something that I have been focusing on as a growth area. No, that doesn’t mean I don’t require facts to move forward (though I am sure that there are many people who wish that were the case, lol). It’s means I’m a work in progress, and I’m learning to value other’s decisions regarding where to place trust.

As a focus for my professional growth, this path has led me to become a better leader for my team. Understanding how they make trust-based decisions, and trusting that they are making the right decisions is a big part of being a leader and growing leaders. As such, my focus has shifted away from “what would I do in this situation,” and entered a new territory that I am honestly not sure how to describe. It has taken work for me to sit back and just observe. I’ve learned that this new realm requires balance. There are times to trust, and there are times to step in. I have made blunders in both areas, but I continue to learn and grow from these missteps. It is my intent to continue to learn and grow in this area.

So often in our careers we find ourselves experiencing the same things & the same types of disappointment over time. We often look outward for the cause. However, many times the answers that we are looking for can only be found by looking inward. Let’s all take a moment to look inward.

Where do you need to grow as it relates to trust? What steps can you take to hold yourself accountable for growth in this part of your journey?

I invite you to start right here and right now. Leave a comment to let me know what you will do to stretch yourself. Be sure to add your thoughts to your personal journal so that you can hold yourself accountable for the new trust goal(s) that you set. I look forward to hearing from you!

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